Hrm. I'm curious.

[x-dazzler.livejournal.com]

So.

Who promised you the world on a platter while you were here, that's what I want to know. Who promised you the rose garden and the happy ever after with lace and sugar and a ribbon on top without oh, I don't know... you not having to actually work for it at all? Which "they" walked up to you and said you had to trust them and they expected it from you? Mmm? Hell, I haven't even told Miles anything of the sort.

So some of you keep saying "they" lied to you. Some keep saying "they" as though it were some sort of curse word, but fact is, I don't know anyone called "They" here. And some of you keep acting as though you're being kept in jail.

I'm wondering here. Who?

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[xp_daytripper]

Speaking as the "femme with her face smashed in and a gun to her head", I've got to say that while I wasn't expecting a free ride, I wasn't expecting to have my face smashed in an a gun held to my head in my first week. If Remy hadn't happened along, I wouldn't be here. Simple as that.

I don't expect things to be easy. They haven't been yet, an I don't expect them to change. But I was told that this was a better place than the streets, an I believed Romany an Pete an the X geezer when they told me that. An I don't see this place as a prison - if I did you wouldn't see the dust for me leaving. I'm willing to give this place a shot, since its willing to give me a shot. But its hard to live the normal life I'm expected, of classes an homework an all the rest of it, when I don't know whose coming after us next. I wasn't told by anyone that there had been previous raids, that there was a possibility of others, an that there were people here with connections to groups that might have a problem with those people being here. This is stuff I need to know, at least so I have a hiding place scoped out next time armed bastards come through the wide-open front door. Which I've done, by the way.

I'm working to learn how to protect meself. I'm working at getting better at me schoolwork so I can do something other than stand on street corners offering meself for a tenner. I'm working at learning to control me magic, an me mutation. I'm working to learn how to trust people, when I've never had cause to before. I'm not expecting any of it to come easy, believe me. This ain't a jail - bed's are more comfy, for a start. An if you want me gone, I'm gone. But don't sit there an say I expect everything on a silver platter, because I'm working harder than I ever have because Pete seems to think this place can do something for me, an him I trust. Least until I find out he's forgotten any more secret memos. *grins*

In return, all I expect is to be able to walk down the fucking hall without some bastard leaping out at me an deciding I'd look better with a major gunshot wound to the head. Not entirely unreasonable, I'd say.

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[x-dazzler.livejournal.com]

*sighs*

See my answer to Remy about the previous raids. We're not hiding anything. No one is lying to anyone about what happened. And no, we don't go telling everyone who walks off from the street (whether they lived there or not, oi) that we invaded by the US Army. We don't keep posters up on the walls informing every passer-by of this. Might be part of the healing process for those who were in the first attack, on a really random thought, mmm? But - as mentioned before... This isn't just staff. Every person in this house at the time is aware of what happened. You want to start throwing about accusations of lies and witholding of information, make sure that's what people are doing first? Because otherwise, you're heading for the extremely insulting towards people who have lived earlier events zone.

No one wants anyone gone. Well, I don't want anyone gone - better to speak for myself here. However, constantly lashing out and attacking people for things they can't control or predict isn't going to get you anywhere either. Treating people who are trying and genuinely want to help you like the ennemy sure ain't going to help either. Might wear them down eventually though. Which would suck donkey balls though a big bendy straw. (Who, I ask, said this near Miles??!) And common sense - if you're here because you're in trouble, how far a reach is it to consider that you might not be the only one? Just think about it.

Wanting to be safe? Not unreasonnable. The same those who walk down the street everyday expecting not to be mugged, run over by a car, or have a building fall on them expects this as well. No one expect being shot at by someone off in the distance with a high powered sniper rifle either. Look at the news. On varying levels, life happens to everyone every day. People get into car accidents. People get murdered in the safety of their homes. People get mugged.

Wanting to be safe is normal.

Not being safe and life throwing stuff at you regardless of what you want?

Yeah, normal too. Methinks you'd know all about that one, actually. *wry*

So, how we deal with this and how we regroup from it and how we make sure it doesn't happen again?

Well, that's up to each and every single one of us. Attitude in the doing, will be telling. Very much so.

May I suggest you simply post to the x_journal community? Just try this. Ask. Instead of lashing out and accusing, as many have been doing over and over and over again instead of just trying another path instead... Just post and ask. What is going on for security? What measures are being taken? What can we do to help? How can we help?

Because if no one starts asking and initiating talk that's not about telling everyone here how much they suck, it's hard to just sit there and spew the entire contents of our lives and schedules, just in the off chance that someone might want to know something about it. It's already been said, several times by several people, that if you ask about something, we will try out best to answer. With what we know.

But if you don't ask, we can't answer. Can we.

So. Sounds fair?

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[xp_daytripper]

Well, that's up to each and every single one of us. Attitude in the doing, will be telling. Very much so.

Protection spell on the house. Healing meself an three other people. Taking every defence class I can get, 'cause magic don't do shit against metal guns.

I'm doin' what I can.